Monday Tap and Jazz

In Dance, Flat on November 24, 2014 at 11:55 pm

I slept terrible last night, my mind was racing on the whole Director thing – and unwittingly I have drawn up a plan… while in bed, tracing a line of events leading to several conclusions, all of which… will sadly, be confrontational. I just have to plan in certain order, I don’t want the hassle to be honest but hidden things need to be brought to light – bad/unethical practise need to be exposed, we can’t let anyone get away with it, no matter who. I’m making a checklist… let’s see how it goes!


I was shattered already and it was the start of a new routine, I think the dial setting was on hard! Well, it was manageable, mostly memorising and doing harder steps with speed. I didn’t mind this routine but I preferred the others – I think it’s mainly the performance arms which I’m not too great at. Still, I gave it a go, less problem with my feet, but arms were inhibited!

The warmup was more intensive and the across the room was fast, basically Ailsa decided to up a level and push us – which is great! I love a good challenge and yeh I had a good time despite my half-doped state. We did wings – double followed by single wing, definitely something to refine because it was part of our routine. Two fat priorities are wings and toe pullbacks, so I’ll take any opportunity to work at them. I need the repetition!

It’s been a productive hour and my feet did ache, I loved the wings prep tonight – itching for more. Gotta keep tapping!


Studio 2 had ballet examination, we were shifted to Studio 4 – ideal for tap, probably the best studio for it. Great for tap shoes but not too good for my soft jazz shoes, my poor knees felt every leap on the hard floor. I enjoyed the shorter warmup session but didn’t like lying on the floor – didn’t look that clean! The across the room was more compact but ok. And we continued on our routine (hurrah!), Thriller!

I love Studio 4 but for Jazz I preferred the softer padding upstairs. I was beginning to fade halfway through and right now I’m aching a bit… hmm I guess it’s good! Unexpectedly I’ve been able to stretch myself further, didn’t think I’d become more flexible but yeh… guess I am, healthy mind, healthy body!

So tired… another long week ahead! 

Jazz T… oh wait!

In Dance, Flat on November 20, 2014 at 1:43 am

I was hoping to tap tomorrow but they’re fully booked and I couldn’t get Friday, decided to go tonight at 7:30pm. I had a 6:30pm meeting with some Directors from another development, sadly had to cut it short with them. I just needed to tap!

Tap first!

It felt weird going in at 7:30pm, I half expected Kate in there with her oddly matched socks. Instead I had to wait outside Studio 4 for ‘Pop Dance’ to come out, so… that’s in place now? Only two people came out and they were mates. Hmm never mind, I walked in and turned off the end lights, with just a middle beam I enjoyed the ambient more – never liked anywhere too bright when dark. 

I put on my tap playlist and… off I went. No practise sheets, no across the room… just freedom of expression and an utter loss of inhibition, I let my feet do the talking. I didn’t stand on the same spot, or kept my feet parallel or aligned my arms… I danced freely, flailing left and right with small and big steps, spins, flaps, close-to-floor-tapping, my arms moved to where it made sense. My whole purpose tonight, was to dance to the tunes I enjoy and let it carry me – to let my fear go and let my feet move the way I want it to move. Basically, I had to go for it and be brave.

I was also surprised at the floor in Studio 4, much better than the stickier Studio 5!

Mostly… I made noise but there were moments of rhythm, I searched for rhythm all night – next door must hate me for the ruckus I was causing. To be honest, I found it easier to build rhythm when I go fast but sadly my skill-level isn’t there yet. It’s been experimental (or just mental!) and I’d like to think it’s the first time I ever really let myself loose in tap – without fear of being seen or judged, and I was quite amazed at some of the made-up combos I’m able to do. I have the idea but not the execution yet, there’s hard work ahead to catch up with the tapper I want to be. It was exciting to knock out rhythm… I just need to go loud, then pull back and refine it, I need to evolve! I have to keep my ankles moving!

One of the best sessions on my own yet!

Other Directors

I arranged this meeting before the latest series of disagreements, it was something I’ve been planning to do anyway in my quest for research. I met three Directors from a development and… they were absolutely lovely! They were so supportive of me because they went through similar experiences and understood my position. They said it’s a rewarding feeling to accomplish things but equally, it’s an under-appreciated role – I understood them and they understood me. They saw how lonely my role was and gave me so much support, even encouraged me to sell up and move in with them – tempting!

We spoke about the way their place is run, their management company supply a report document with every repair and arrears for their meetings, plus they get three quotes for every job! There were a lot of things I haven’t considered, normal things that I should be within my rights to ask – our management company should never intimidate with legal consequences. I should not be daunted to ask for information because – as they put it, we employ them. I won’t go into details but they gave me the boost and courage I need to carry on. I haven’t resigned so obviously I’ve felt beaten enough to want to fight back. The dual role of one Director is a VERY contentious issue and that’s the first thing we need to clarify. 

I’m standing in a very big puddle… and I need professional guidance. I know where to go and where to look now, it’s fantastic to hear that support from a similar group. 

I’m recharged and ready to go!

Argentine VS Portugal

In Manchester, Random, Sports on November 18, 2014 at 11:55 pm

I couldn’t miss the chance of seeing Ronaldo or Messi at Old Trafford. At the time I had no idea whether they were even playing. Luckily my mate got us tickets (they were £40 + £4 booking fee!) and we went tonight!

Rojo is injured BUT, cheers rang out in a half empty stadium when Ronaldo, Di Maria and Messi was announced in the starting line-up. That made my evening, a chance to see Ronaldo and Messi knock about! Massive jeering for none other than Carlos Tevez who, let’s face it – managed to piss off United AND City fans, he was brave to make a lone walk to the bench before kick-off. For Argentina, Demichellis and Mascherano teamed up in a solid defence, Higuain was pretty good and Tevez played near the end, Sergio Aguero didn’t feature – probably still recuperating. For Portugal we saw Nani back – it’s as if he was never a United player, not many cheers for him – nor boos, fans just shrugged their shoulders with sheer indifference, ex-Chelsea defender Carlvalho played, as did Fonte (Southampton) and a few others I might have seen in the Champions League or World Cup.

It’s been an ok first half and an ok second half, Argentina dominated and should have won, Messi was booed a lot. Our seats were too low and on the opposite end, we couldn’t really see him well enough – disappointingly subbed in the second half, he didn’t get a chance to run up at our end. Least we saw Ronny and he gave us a sheepish wave lol… plus a miskick into Demichellis’s stomach… that looked painful! 

The evening got a bit cold, we had a Mexican wave that lasted four laps! Pretty impressive from a mish-mash collection of fans, the Portuguese outnumbered the Argentinians by a fair bit but there were lots of United fans too, hoping to catch their former hero in action. It was pretty much Ronaldo-watch all through the first half, we were glued to him and loudly encouraged his every touch and sprints. Shame he didn’t score (or do much!), as usual he did a lot of strutting about and commanding everyone to chase the ball – he stayed up high waiting for the counter, but against a defence as good as Argentina, he didn’t get much opportunity to move behind Mascherano who I thought was quality, say what you want about him but he’s a really, really good defender.

It’s been a very family friendly, good vibe kind of evening. Shame our hero didn’t score and shame I couldn’t see Messi that well, still, I enjoyed the quality of football at times and Di Maria is always good to watch. Afterwards we decided to walk back into town… didn’t take that long, it was good to catch up with mates. Got in around 10:20pm, my feet are knackered! 

Been a good outing, always good to see Ronny!


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